Addiction

I hate your meetings. I hate you 12 steps. In fact, I hate anybody who has anything to do with a recovery program. Allow me to introduce myself.... I AM YOUR ADDICTION!
I am known to many in your program as "cunning, baffling and powerful." And yet, I did not come uninvited. You CHOSE me! In fact, you welcomed me with open arms. I was your courage, your strength and your hope. I took away your feelings of being shy, angry, lonely, tired, hungry and happy. Eventually, I took away any feeling you ever had until you were nothing but an empty shell-void of any feeling at all. When we first met, you said that you didn't deserve all the good things you had in life. I was the only one who agreed with you and was more tan happy to take it all away from you. But now you claim to have found a better way? You say that you have found a Higher Power?! HA!!! I thought I was your higher power. Wasn't it me you used to turn to every morning and pray that I would stay down in your guts? Wasn't it me that you used to ask to steady your nerves and give you courage to face the world again? I thought it would be you and me forever-friends until the end. And damn it! I almost had you until the end. But I let you slip away from me. I had you wrapped around my finger. I could make you beg, borrow and steal just to have me. I had you at the point of believing that suicide was the only way out....
...until your so called Higher Power came to the rescue.
But that's ok, I'm patient. I CAN WAIT! You can't see me, but you'll always remember me. And ever once in a while, I'll remind you that I'm still here-waiting for you to return. So until we meet again...(If we meet again), I wish you a long painful, suffering death like you could have had with me!!!